Being a mom for the first time at 40yrs old.

All my life I wanted to be a mom, at the age of 40 I found out I was pregnant with my first December 2010 and I was so excited but at the same time I was so afraid of what kind of mom I’ll be. On August 2011 I gave birth to my first Amelia. At first I was so terrified I remember calling the doctor every day and I’ll always wake Amelia up because I thought she wasn’t breathing but I had to learn how to relax and just pray to God that she’ll be ok. Which took me a long time which was difficult and at that time I was having problems with my eyes I couldn’t see and I had to get three surgeries when Amelia was only 5weeks old. During those times I was in tremendous pain and it wasn’t fun being a mom but I did my best and my partner Stuart was doing his best to help me through what I was going through. For the first year of being a mom I had to get five eye surgeries and it was such difficult times for me and my family. Despite of what I was experiencing I loved being a mom for the first time and it was such a blessing to have our first baby and being a mom changed me to the best person I can be and it was my dream to be a mom🙏🏼💖